exhausted

i have never felt so alone and insecure and depressed and hopeless and sad and scared and confused....i mean...i had no idea how huge this change was gonna be. School is tough...and I was ready for that....but the environment in which im gonna be working in is just so different....and the hours i have to spend there are just so crazy.....and the stuff that is being asked of me...is so strange....I'm not used to it. I have to admit that I am not good with change. I feel stupid and little in this school....I feel like I'm never gonna finish...yet I look around and see the other students who have been in my position...I see that it is possible....but for some stupid reason..that doesnt comfort me. There are so many things I am worried about. The biggest one being FAILURE.....im just afraid that I'm gonna be horrible. I am way to negative....which is not like me....that's why I'm scared. I'm always positive about things....so when I start thinking thoughts like these....I feel like the world is ending. I know i am very naive.....im not as aggressive as I should be....i dont ask as many question like other students do.....i always think to myself...try to figure things out internally...and I have a hard time socializing with new people....i feel really awkward at school. So not only am I stressed academically....but i feel like the social aspect of this school is making me even worse. All I think about is being at home with my family....its really lame. I HOPE.....that things will get better very soon....because im so drained....and its only the third day. im really sorry for writing this post like this....one huge ugly paragraph....i just want to get my thoughts out. also..im sorry if i dont make sense!

LAST DAY OF FREEDOM

That's how I feel today. Constantly thinking about tomorrow....new school...new people....ughhh....I'm nervous and sad that school is starting again.....don't know what to expect. This always happens to me....the day before...I count down the hours...get sad everytime I remember that school is starting...Hopefully the day will go by quickly~ UGHHHHHHHHHH I DON'T WANT SCHOOL TO START......it's really hot outside (94 degrees).....they should wait till the weather cools down to start school...cause people might faint while walking to class...due to the combination of overheating and depression....

It's gonna take a while...

I got my new phone!! I was supposed to get it on Saturday...but they had none in stock....I got the Motorola because they didn't have the Nokia in stock and it was gonna take a long time for them to get some....and I can't live without a phone....my friends are already mad at me for not answering their texts and calls.....so I got the Motorola. So far I like it a lot. I could do everything with my Ericsson blindfolded....It's gonna take a while till I get used to this one~ So far there is nothing in my phone. I need to upload some music...I'm so excited that I can use mp3s as ringtones...I wanna find some cute wallpapers too~~

open It's pretty big...but it's thin....I like big flip phones....notice my running shoes in the background...I'm so messy haha~~

I took this picture with my phone! I bought these shoes a couple of weeks ago from Aldo....I have them in black as well. They weren't that comfortable at first (the back would hurt me), but now they are super comfortable.

It died on me

So....I've had the same cell phone for over five years. It has been my only phone....and I love it very much. Today, however, it died ;___; We had been looking for new phones this week....but I wanted to keep my phone...it's so simple and small...I don't think I'll be able to use another one. So today, the batteries were low...I plugged it in...but it wouldn't charge....it was refusing to charge no matter what I did....it was as if it telling me that it was time to let go....ahhhh so sad. I'm freaking out since I'm missing calls and texts.....ahhh I need a new phone asap!!!!