i mean nothing to myself

today sucked

it was pretty horrible in the beginning

just family stuff

ani and I had to stick together

but i was so angry

and i think i went insane

and then i got a really bad headache on the left side of my head

and my left arm started to hurt

and i cried a lot

so my eyes hurt right now

and then i decided to leave

and then ani joined me

and we went to barnes to read

im still upset

it was tough

there are so many things i wish i could change

but i have no control over them

and it is really painful

i am stuck here

im not happy

and i doubt it will ever change

so its scary to think about the future

I CRIED DURING HUBBLE 3D

I went to the California Science Center with my family on Sunday. We wanted to go see the Mummy Exhibit. We did...it was pretty expensive to get in...and there were a lot of people...a lot of..kids. I hate kids so much. Especially ones that just cry and cry and run around and slam into me. I hate kids so much. I don't think I will ever have kids. ANYWAY. They basically ruined the experience. The mummies looked amazing though! Afterwards...since we were kind of rushed around the exhibit...we decided to watch Hubble 3D which is a documentary narrated by Leo DiCaprio about the Hubble Space Station. OMGGGGGGGGG. HIGHLIGHT OF MY SUMMER. It was so exciting. My eyes were tearing up the whole time. I love space so much...I get so emotional and crazy. It was really wonderful! Afterward, my dad and I were like "OMGOMGOMG THE LAUNCH WAS SO COOL! OMGGGGGGG ORIONS BELT!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGLDLVWINRBWIEhG". We love space. I'm gonna go see it again with a friend of mine this Saturday. We both love space.

I went to H&M with my sister the other day. I got two tops and these black pants. They are super comfortable~ I got the top I'm wearing as well<3 It looks really nice in person...it just has this weird smell...I can't explain...this burnt smell hahaha~ So I'm gonna wash it and see what happens. I also got a leopard printed short sleeved top that is long in the back~ Didn't get to take a picture of it, but I'll post pictures later~

You can't really see it in this picture...but I'm wearing a.........MR. BEAN T-SHIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MR. BEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

And I'll end this post with this picture I took at Costco.

Never Gonna Leave Me

Long day yesterday. Finally some relaxing~ My crocodile and I are best buddies <3

you gonna show the world that something good can work and it can work for you

New shoesssssssssssssssss!!!!!! I'm so excited~ I went shoe shopping today with my mom. I haven't gone shopping with her in years. Like...four or five years. It was kind of fun~ Sometimes I would get pissed hahaha (I would be reminded to why I do not go shopping with her), but it didn't matter today. I wanted to take her out and just hang out..since we don't do that so much...she needed some fresh air...she had fun, and that is all that matters.

We both went shoe crazy. She bought two pairs...I got two pairs. She bought a really beautiful (super high ;__;) heel from Aldo and a really cute and simple wedge from Macy's. The one below is the one from Aldo.

I got the shoes in the top photos from Macy's. They were on sale~ I also ordered a pair from Aldo that were also on sale...they just didn't have a smaller size, so I had to order them. They will get to me in 3 to 5 days~ YAY!!!  EXCITED!!! They look like this:

Besides that...I just got a blood test done in the morning~ It was to see if I am doing well now that I don't have mono. The lady who takes the blood test is already used to my face. Today when I went in there with my dad she looked at us and goes "Lorik...it's you again!". I still hate needles, but I have gotten used to them now...it's pretty amazing.

OFF TO RUN NOW~ <3 Have a great day guys <3<3<3