"For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love."

My latest painting is of one of my heroes - Carl Sagan. He's been a source of knowledge, love, and inspiration for me and so I thought I'd finally paint him, because that's what I do - I paint things/people that make me happy.

I was originally going to do a simple portrait of him without a background but that idea changed as I started to paint and my mind began to wander. I thought a lot about the Voyager 1 which holds the Voyager Golden Records that Sagan selected the contents for. I thought about how far away the Voyager is from us (it is the farthest space craft from Earth!) and how far away Sagan seems to be especially at times like these when everything seems to be going wrong in the world.

It's important to revisit his loving words every now and then.

Bojack Horseman Watercolor Portraits

It's been a while but I'm back! I've been traveling and painting a lot these past few months. I visited my home country of Sweden after 18 years and I traveled spontaneously around Italy with my childhood friend. I've had a wonderful summer and autumn so far and I'm feeling happy and appreciative about things :)

When I came back from Sweden, in the end of August, I binge watched the latest season of Bojack Horseman. If you haven't seen it - please do. It is absolutely amazing. 

My obsession with the show lingered on for a bit after I was done with the last episode so it was constantly on my mind. Somehow, I got the idea to paint realistic portraits of the characters of the show and I've had a blast working on them. I'm painting with regular watercolors, trying new techniques and I feel like I'm getting better with every painting. The four paintings below are the ones I've completed so far. Who should I paint next?

BoJack Horseman

BoJack Horseman

Princess Carolyn

Princess Carolyn

Mr. Peanutbutter

Mr. Peanutbutter

Sextina Aquafina

Sextina Aquafina

Jigglycat: Catching z's at every opportunity


This is Jigglycat. I originally drew Jigglycat on snapchat when I was in NYC celebrating the new year. 

I had forgotten about the cat until a few weeks ago when I switched phones. I was saving photos from my old phone onto my computer when I stumbled upon the original snap! So I cleaned it up a bit and now I have a blinking Jigglycat <3

Thursday Night Feelings

I'm not sad. Just a little emotional. 

My mom was sitting on the couch in the guest room, alone with her dress awkwardly around her neck, not pulled down. She was having a hard time putting it on. And then I guess she just forgot what she was doing or she got lost in her own thoughts. She was staring at something intently, so I tiptoed to the other side of the room and noticed Laika lying down on the floor looking up at her. They were staring at each other. Laika can’t speak to us cause she’s a dog and my mom can’t speak properly for us to understand her cause she has Parkinson’s. They are on the same level.

It’s moments like this where all the anger and resentment I feel towards her washes away. It’s a sweet moment for me because it shows that no matter what, I still have love for her and it makes me feel better about myself. The feeling sounds dumb when I try to explain it with words, but sometimes I don’t feel like a good person around her. I get frustrated. I get tired of her antics. I just get tired and I want to stay away from her. Far, far away. 

When she’s like this, however, I feel that bit of sweetness, but it is always followed by sadness for her. She is lost in her own mind and there’s nothing I can do about it. She helpless and sometimes she realizes just how helpless she is. It's frightening. 

She suddenly looked at me and I got startled cause I was lost in my own thoughts. She looked worried so I put on a happy face and started chasing my dog around the house to make her smile. She smiled.

I helped her wear her dress and she thanked me for it. She tried to tell me something about her day but I could barely understand, so I just nodded. I sat her down next to my dad and then I went to my room and cried a little.

Here I am now. I’m not sad. Just a little emotional.