Feeling Cold and Rushed

It's been getting colder here which I love. The problem that I'm having (which I've always had) is that I'm always cold. My feet and my hands (especially my hands) turn to ice and then I start feeling weak. Over the years I've learned that my body doesn't circulate blood so well. That is why I always try to walk everyday and move around as much as I can. But when school becomes really busy and difficult, I have no choice but to sit in front of the computer for hours. Because of this, I've been freezing for the past two weeks. My dad has been making me lots of tea with honey and makes sure that I eat a lot of garlic to warm up. He says "even if you don't get warm, at least vampires won't get to you at night".

This is my study buddy. He sits by me all night until I finish work.

This was our review on Friday. It sucked and I don't feel happy about it at all. Sometimes these things can make you feel so bad about yourself. Especially if you are already sad about things that aren't school related.

I went to a lecture at my school on Saturday morning. It was sort of like a symposium about water and all the problems we are facing with water shortages. The speakers were very knowledgeable and I learned a lot.

Saturday night my friend asked me if I wanted to go to Universal Studio's City Walk with her. Initially I said no because I felt like staying in bed and resting after a stressful week. But I forced myself to get up. It ended up being fun and I don't get to see her very much since she goes to school in a different city~ The best part of the night was an old man that was wearing a shiny skull. He would stand in the crowd so he could be on the screen and whenever the camera would move, he would move with it so he would be shown all the time. He would also photobomb everyone. It was awesome.

That's us at the top~

Yesterday I needed to get out of the house because I felt like crap and needed someone to talk to. My friend picked me up and drove me to his house. He had been preparing food and his sister was home (the one I go to Shin Sen Gumi with!) and we all ate together. It was so great, but the guilt of not doing homework was killing my mood.

And this is today. Been home alone today doing work. I've been waiting for trick or treaters, but none have shown up yet. I've been trying to figure out my project but it's been a slow process so far and it's making me frustrated. I've been feeling sad again lately and it sucks that I can't focus on my feelings because school has been forcing me to constantly do other things...which most would think is a good thing because it distracts you. But when I am doing boring CAD drawings my mind wanders off and just thinks of all the sad and negative things. I just want to be out all day with people who can give me hugs and tell me that everything will be okay, but I can't! THINK POSITIVE.....ughhh but it's so hard.