I am so tired. But I wanted to take a break and write here since I haven't in a while. I have studio tomorrow so I have been working non-stop for two days. I am currently sitting on my bedroom floor...with cardboard everywhere. I have given myself a paper cut...on my cheek. I have also accidentally poked myself with my x-acto knife four times. My left eye is hurting for no reason. I had to walk to school today and back, carrying huge cardboards and it was a loooong and heavy walk. I have made my site plan....6 massing models....a section drawing...am writing my written statement right now...and have to make three more models and draw some diagrams. It is now 12:49 am. On top of all this, my mom has been doing really badly this week. Today I was home working and she stayed home cause she was in a lot of pain. I was in my room working but she would keep calling me to help her get up and stuff. It was getting hard to get any work done...cause...it's not just a one time thing....or like...you go and help and then you are done....You constantly think about it..."how is she doing now...is she calling me?..i can't hear...I should go check up on her"....sometimes I get angry and sometimes I get upset. I was stressing out cause of my work load, but I felt guilty not running to her every time she called. Her pain kept getting worse and worse, so I started panicking cause I couldn't help her. She kept telling me to call my dad cause she was getting worried. So I quickly called my dad who was on his way home by chance. He came home and saw that he couldn't do anything either...so he took her to the hospital.
GREAT DAY. JUST WONDERFUL.
I am so tired of this situation. I wish she could just be ok.