I'm experimenting with red ink. I'm not sure if you're supposed to, but I've been mixing the ink with water to dilute it. Seems to be working~ I've been listening to Tim Ferriss' podcasts while painting and last night I started watching Daredevil on Netflix and I've been trying to watch but I keep forgetting about my work during the suspenseful parts so I better just stick to the podcasts for now.
It's been a super packed week. I don't mind it though. Whenever I feel anxious, heartbroken, down, whatever, I like being busy. It isn't healthy to avoid those feelings - so I don't. I acknowledge that they exist but then I let myself do other things so I can gain some momentum instead of staying static. When I sit still, I have a harder time picking things up again. Gotta keep moving, even if it's just a tiiiiiny bit.
The week is slowly coming to an end, but I still have a super busy few days coming up. Also, I'm planing something exciting with my cousin. I might be traveling in the veryyyy near future. YAY!
I've had a very lovely July, so far. I've had the chance to take things slow, be alone, and self-reflect. I started baking again. I used to bake a lot when I was younger which was cool, but then lately I got trapped in the mindset that it was too much of a hassle because of all sorts of reasons. But it really isn't. I was being lazy and I finally admitted it to myself, which made me feel better.
Sometimes we know what we need to do to help ourselves but we're not there emotionally and so change doesn't happen - because we aren't ready. When I'm able to admit it to myself, I know I'm ready to make it happen.
I go on walks every night. It helps me unwind. I go walking reallly late (not a good idea, I know) because it's completely quiet then and there aren't any cars out that mess with the flow of my walk/jog. The quiet also allows me to hear everything in my head clearer, if that makes sense. I've encountered a lot of animals too (raccoons, deer, coyotes). I drew this little comic for the little cute bugs I come across <3
Last weekend I visited Vincent Lamouroux's art installation called "Projections" -twice! The sun was setting the first time so I wanted to go back the next day to see it shine bright in the sun. It was very bright. When you drive past it, you can't help but stop to take a closer look. Lamouroux covered Silver Lake's Sunset Pacific Motel entirely in white lime wash (grass and trees included) and the results were magical. For more information about the installation, click here!
...Wonderful. I went to see Stromae last night at Club Nokia with two friends. It was one of the most fun shows I've been to in a long while. He had so much energy and is super charismatic - just an incredible performer. My favorite part of the show was when he said something along the lines of "Let's go back to the 90s!" during one of his songs (Alors On Danse) and the music changed to Insomnia by Faithless. It was beautifulllll. The place just explodedddd. Several times during the show, I had these out of body experiences where I was thinking: "Wow, this is happening right now. This is a lot of fun. Cherish it. Remember this moment."
I also experienced two, very awkward, Uber rides. Perfect night.
This isn't from last night's show but this is what happened. It. Was. Awesome.
I started painting her for therapeutic reasons and it feels good to be done. I consumed a huge quantity of chocolate during. No regrets.
I have finally started looking through my photographs from my trip to Armenia this summer. It's been nice. I put on music and zone out for a few hours, clicking away, reliving the moments of this trip in my head. I'm glad I went.
We visited a resort town called Tsaghkadzor (means Valley of Flowers) which is located in Kotayk. During the winter, there is snow everywhere and people come by to visit the ski resort. During the summer, there is no snow, obviously, but the ski lifts still operate. The ride up was peaceful for the most part - occasional screams from my little cousin, who is afraid of heights, added some excitement. We wandered around up top and I was delighted that there were adorable horses hanging out.
It was a fun day. Lots of warmth and laughter. I miss my relatives very much. It's always nice to visit beautiful places but it's even better when you have wonderful company with you as well.
To say that the past couple of weeks have been difficult would be an understatement. My mom's illness took an extreme turn for the worse and we've had to process the situation and accept very difficult decisions in a short time which has put a lot of stress on us. As a family, we are all a bit on the emotional and sensitive side at the moment. So much happened in a blink of an eye. Now that she is back from the hospital and the situation has settled a bit, I'm glad to say that I'm doing better than I expected. This week I've started to feel energized and positive. I want to run forward...do stuff...move on. Though our situation isn't ideal, I'm happy and grateful. I'm grateful for my loving family and for the amazing friends that I'm lucky to have.
The day my mom was taken to the emergency room, I stayed at my friend's place. I stayed there several times afterward as well and it became a sanctuary for me (ughhhh sounds so dramatic) - a place where I felt okay when everything else in my life was falling apart. I felt isolated and lonely at home and I couldn't fall asleep in my room because the silence was so loud...but here I felt at ease. This painting is a snapshot of warmth, coziness, and friendship.
At Khor Virap - Lusarat, Armenia
I came back from Armenia a month ago and it has taken me this long to make a post. I wanted to write as soon as I got back but to be honest, my experience there was so overwhelming that I didn't know where to start and so today I decided I should just write something. I need time to process my trip. I took so many photographs and when I sit down to sort through them I get overwhelmed again, so if it's alright with you, I'm gonna take some time and let them sit for a bit until I'm ready.
Armenia was wonderful. It had been 12 years since I'd been there last. Saying that the place had changed would be a huge understatement. I had heard how much Yerevan (the capital) had changed from friends and family that had traveled there these past couple of years but I didn't expect to be so pleasantly surprised. It's a beautiful city with so much happening! People are always out and about and I'm a bit jealous that I'm not there right now.
What I appreciated the most was that I got a chance to disconnect from my worries for a bit. I was surrounded by wonderful people and friends, ate a lot of good food, and was just constantly in awe of how beautiful Armenia is. Lots of love all around <3
I'll be back with more photos <3